Heard you just got back from Fitbloggin! Did you have fun? Good!
Heard you co-led a discussion on tough love too, how’d that go? Good? Good!
That’s part of the reason why we’re here.
You (and the awesome MrsFatass) talked a lot about tough love and doing more to hold this community accountable on their journeys. Have you really looked in the mirror and did for this yourself though?
Cuz son, you got fat.
We’ve gone beyond putting on a few pounds back on, we’re up to 334 lbs. That’s crazy, and that’s the biggestt you’ve ever been…which sucks considering this is your third or fourth “biggest you’ve ever been” weight.
It’s not just about the number though, you’re at the point where shit is uncomfortable. It’s harder to move around. Walking up to the apartment leaves you out of breath, and just about nothing fits you. Even some of the 44w shorts and 4xl shorts you bought to take to Georgia are a little tight. Shit’s getting ridiculous up in here.
I know you’re under a lot of stress right now. I know the new job is kind of kicking your ass, I know you’re moving in a couple of weeks, and I know you’re preparing to transfer grad schools to start an MBA program. I also know you had to step back from CrossFit for a bit because of the costs, and I know you still miss it.
Seriously, I get it. There is a lot of shit going on and this is a stressful time, but dude, you need to take better care of yourself. The stress isn’t going away anytime soon, and if things continue to go down like they are you’re just going to bring yourself a crap load of pain and suffering.
You made some good first steps today. You rejoined an old gym that has a good variety of group classes, and you bought some new food in order to recommit to Paleo. You don’t have to go gung ho 100% this time around, but you did feel really good on it last time. You also need to go back to therapy.
You need this to be last reset. You can still slip up. Shit IS going to happen, but you aren’t going to slip up and let things spiral from there.
You’re 30 years old, and you have a lot of shit you want and need to get done. This is one of the hardest struggles you’ve dealt with, but it’s time to finally do it.
You’re not going to fuck this up.
NOTE: #justtrollin is the hashtag we came up with in the Tough Love session as a way to let someone know we’re about to call them out, but that we’re doing so from a place a love because we want them to succeed. In order to be able to call someone else out on their crap though, you need to be able to do the same with yourself. That is what this post is for.